If you follow me on facebook, you know that is the word of the day. WHATEVER. It is basically my response to all the stupid stuff that I hear about, the stupid things that are happening to me and happening to the one's I love. WHATEVER!
It is really hard sometimes to understand what God is doing. I know he is bigger than us, created us, loves us, wants good things for us, but often lately I am left wondering what he is going to do in our lives.
I like to know what is coming my way, what to expect, what to look forward to. To just hear the "NO's" of today it is really easy to realize that a "YES" will come soon enough and we will know what our next steps should be.
This also reminds me of how interesting the older you get, the more decisions are harder to make because so many decisions impact situations in the future. Sure, we could sell all that we own and move to some remote area of the planet, BUT, is that using what God has given us wisely?
OR we could do what we do for this is what we know, and miss out on some incredible opportunities. I would say this, both Jamos and I know that change is coming. We don't know what type of change, or what these means, but we LONG for something different. You hear me rant about how we are STUCK in HOUSTON. And, if you give me long enough, I will say that is how I feel today more than anything-- STUCK. WHATEVER.
I love my job. I love my husband. But, I also our families, our friends who we live far from. We just finished a very great class called, "sprituality in the workplace" and although I went into this thinking it was talking about Christianity in the workplace, I learned the difference between religion and spirituality. Each person NEEDS to find a fulfilment in their work, something that touches their core and gets them out of bed each morning. Another interesting aspect is that of leadership. People really need to understand if they manage a group of people, the impact THEY have on the group. I sure wish I knew what I know now about management when I was in charge of the admissions reps at SAU. I thought I was a good leader, but I am learning how much impact a leader can have- when using both servant and spiritual leadership. It can change lives. And make a job more fulfilling.
WHATEVER.
I don't think that this post actually makes sense. In fact, I am more confused now than I was when I started writing it. But, I do beg you- reader to PRAY for Jamos and I. Hopefully you have been, and we appreciate that. It is easy to become discouraged when the face of God seems hidden in the tough moments of life. We have MUCH to give thanks for- we HAVE jobs, a home, food, clean water, an education, TWO cars, etc., But, we also feel a bit lost, confused and stuck in the place we are at right now.
A positive in this is marriage. Two people- going thru the SAME THING. TOGETHER. Maybe all of this is to soley teach us a lesson in partnership and the true meaning of marriage. Life isn't roses and beaches, but rather, windy days with some lightening and hail....big hail that HURTS when it hits you on the head.
WHATEVER.